Feb 29, 2012

i dedicate this song to

The lonely one. This will be vague but is necessary because these are the emotions I deal with on and off, and now on because this person just won't go away. I'll share more later...maybe.


Your dreams, they slowly fade.
So uncommitted and it's such a waste.
You're left alone and afraid.
Now just confine your problems, 
And figure out your own way to solve them.


I'm not sorry.


I'm not sorry for all the things I've said, 
Go *oh dear* yourself if you can't handle it.


Don't act like you're the one who's innocent.
Have you still learned nothing from this?
When will you face your shameful actions?


Don't act like you're the one that's better off.
I know that you planned this to just let go
It didn't matter the cost.


I'll never need the things you're offering.
You turned your back on me, 
It's such a shame to see.


When we believed we all could live out our dreams, We all stood up for something.
Now that you're left with nothing, 
Don't act like you're better off.
Cold conscious slowly fading, 
You can't get back what you've lost.


Your conscious is slowly fading away, 
Go face the path you've paved.


I watched your dreams die, 
They fell in front of your eyes.
Watch your dreams die, 
They fell in front of your eyes.


I'll never need the things you're offering.
You turned your back on me, 
It's such a shame to see.


When we believed we all could live out our dreams, 
We all stood up for something.
Now that you're left with nothing, 
Don't act like you're better off.
Cold conscious slowly fading, 
You can't get back what you've lost.


Cold conscious slowly fading, 
Cold conscious slowly fading.
You can't get back what you've lost


With that said, I am in a really great place in my life now and I've moved on from most of what's happened. However, because of him taking advantage of me (because he ruined his own life), I am still dealing with those consequences. It's really sad but I'm not one to let that get me down.


So, with that, here is to the new year that has started off with a freakin' BANG of awesome sauce and moving past all of your obstacles that you face. Life is what you make it and I've seen the proof, on both spectrums. I'm just glad I'm on the right side.


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Feb 28, 2012

when i grow up

I never, in a million years (cause I am totally going to live that long), thought I would ever partake in this:


However, I am! I signed up and I cannot wait. Begin training...NOW!

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jazzer...wha!

{ -- my girl doing her workout thang -- }

I have tried most workouts...seems like I have. I've done yoga, Pilates, kickboxing, personal training, boot camp and general workouts in the gym by myself or with a friend. I go back to the gym atmosphere every once in a blue moon and I'll push in a yoga DVD when I'm just too tired or feel more like stretching than getting a ton of cardio in but none of these workouts have ever stuck with me.

In 2002, I was at my first full-time gig, doing my real-time career along with a couple of other young girls starting out as well and I was on a mission to count calories and do all the necessary steps to avoid gaining weight. I'd like to say I have this amazing weight loss story...but, I don't. It's more of a preventative weight gain story.

I always hated working out in High School but I started to get heavier and as soon as I hit the double digits in jean size (women can relate), I joined a gym and worked out like crazy. I lost the weight I'd initially gained and got back to my 'normal' size but I hit my plateau and started to hate the gym. But, when I started this new job, one of the girls commiserated with me and introduced me to...Jazzercise.

Now, my GRANDMA did Jazzercise...years and years ago and my perception, like most, was not necessarily good? Anytime Jazzercise is brought up in any conversation, there are always smirks but I tell you, it's a workout not to be messed with. I went with this co-worker and was immediately addicted and have been a member and kept off the weight for over 9 years now. It is the one workout I look forward to, feel challenged in and know I will finish to the end. Who doesn't like to shake their booty...literally off their body?

Jazzercise is an hour long class consisting of cardio, weights, target training and stretching. It's an entire body workout and you burn up to 500 calories a class! Go to the gym and burn 500 calories on your own...boooooring! Just last week, I went to four classes (one was a half class) and burned over 1,500 calories. Feels great and I'm not stopping. I'm back in my grove this year and there's no turning back :)

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Feb 8, 2012

it's a good day

{ -- Suki Boos and Eddie Bud calm. rare, but it happens -- }

Lately, I've shared some frustrations but, hey, it's part of life. However, we move forward and let go of the things that seem to ruin us and learn from them. Been there, done that, I'm over it. So, I share a quote my dad shared with me the other day:
“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.” ~ Charles R Swindoll
What a great way to see things. It's so refreshing and I would like to read this quote every day, multiple times throughout that day. I will. Everything I do moving forward is more important than anything I've lived in the past. I am grateful for that. If we had to live in the past, I'd be a wreck. With that said, I am one happy girl...as you can see :)

{ -- Sokol Underground with Attack Attack! lead singer, Caleb Shomo -- }

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Feb 6, 2012

i'm flattered, really

{ -- thai leftovers... YUM! --}

I realize that life has its ups and downs and I realize that you have to rise against all that is against you. But, sometimes it is definitely difficult. However, a pep talk with someone who believes in you in every aspect of your life is just what's needed.
Sometimes life sucks.
Sometimes it doesn't.
At least the wolves didn't kill us
...we just saw The Grey over the weekend. It was so good.

Love you dad!

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