never be forgotten

A couple weeks, I had one of the most memorable moments of my life. I wish I could relive that moment, over and over and over and over...

I go to a lot of shows. Mostly hardcore shows. There's something about the energy at those shows, that helps liven me back up. It's like getting a fix and I am most comfortable in those shows. This show, I bought a ticket for over a month in advance. Probably not necessary, they don't sell out their shows but they do put on a good one. I'd seen them already twice before over the past year and would no doubt see every show that follows, in my city.

{ -- unfortunate first photo with him and my crazy, fucking ex -- }

Already started out being a "different" night because this kid was going around grabbing boobs...including mine! Immediately told my bartender friend and he got kicked out. But, not without a fight. Along with that, a friend I used to room with was there, from several years ago. We caught up and I hope to catch up with her over some coffee someday soon.

Show had already started when I got there, the band I wanted to see was headlining so I had plenty of time. Standing in the back, second to last band on stage, I looked over around at the crowd and back at the bar. Lo and behold, my crush (lead singer) was standing at the bar watching his ball team play (how cute). I've always had my photo taken with him but had no one with me this show and no one around to take the photo. I still went up to him, "Can I have a hug?" WHAT?! I asked him for a hug?? He followed through with the lamest hug I've ever received but I didn't care...I got one. He began to talk to me...?? We talked for a small bit as he had to go warm up. Before he left though, he asked if I wanted to hang out after the show. Uhm, yes please!

{ -- second show I saw...much better photo -- }

-- Amazing show ensued. --

We walked outside after they were done packing up gear, I got my car and he got in mine to follow their van to the hotel they were staying at. He was IN MY CAR! We parked and then sat for quite a while...until I absolutely had to use the restroom. So, we went in their room, I did my thing and then we left. Walking through the hallways we talked, I then asked for a piece of gum (I am so needy!). At this time, it was so late and I was totally getting stank breath :D He had some but in their van. So, we walked outside to their van and ended up sitting in there and talked until two members of his crew came out at different times, the last to sleep in the van. I suggested we could move to my car and he agreed....SO, we continued to chat in my car...until almost 5am! At one point, I'd paused talking, looked at him and completely forgot who I had been talking to.

Long post but, I want to remember it. I don't care if he was lying, doesn't like me, nothing will ever happen, etc. but it was just a great moment to have.

We've been texting ever since...but, then who knows how many other girls he's been texting 'ever since'. ;)

**UPDATE: I went to see him in California, his home town, just this week. I'll create another post to talk about!

Lots of <3

thank you and hello, dapper eddie

Last week was a mess. I was a mess but it turned out to be a good mess. A lot happened, a lot of good things and then the weekend...duh, duh, duuuuuh...I got sick and am still recovering but I sometimes enjoy being sick. I know, right? Mostly because I can be lazy and not feel guilty for any of it. I deserve rest damnit!

Besides the crappy end of the week, during the week I went to two concerts; Fun. and Like Moths to Flames. Both amazing and both I would do over again without thinking. And, am once again thankful I only had to buy one ticket. SINGLE! No supporting anyone but myself. Feels great! I'll keep saying it as long as I want to. I just want to scream it every time!

{ -- me with Like Moths to Flames lead Chris Roetter -- }

In other news...Eddie got his hairs did and man, does he look handsome. My dad doesn't like it when I get Eddie's hair done but no matter how often I brush him or bathe him, it needs to be done more often than it seems. He had several tiny knots started everywhere and you can't brush that out. You have to cut them out. Also, when his hair gets long, he seems to retain stink longer. I typically bathe him 1-2X a week depending on how he's smelling or how much of a mess he's gotten himself into. I'll wait as long as I can anyway because the cost to maintain a cut is fairly pricey. It'll grow back and it'll keep doing that so, my dad will get his little buddy back again soon.

{ -- Eddie, looking dapper -- }

Happy Wednesday!

Lots of <3

highlights of my life

Most of my highlights consist of my puppies, going to concerts, being with my family, health and the work I do...oh, and don't forget...FOOD! It's all the things I love and enjoy.

I recently, at the last minute, went to see Puscifer and I am so glad I did. I've been a Tool fan since I was in middle school and have seen them and A Perfect Circle and had not been all too impressed. Maynard mostly stands back and you can barely see him. He hardly moves and there's not much of a 'show'. I'd be better off lying on my living room floor blasting his music, it'd all be the same.

Puscifer was different. It was in a much smaller venue than Tool and A Perfect Circle, it didn't sell out and we took the floor seats. He showed himself and hung out with the crowd after the show up front on stage, in chairs. They played loud and there was a ton of bass, you could feel your hair and your bones shake with the music. I wouldn't even think twice to see them again.

My friend had gotten a threat about being kicked out if he filmed so I didn't take any video, which is such a bummer. So, I can't share any video. I would suggest a search for them on YouTube to find some good live videos of those who took the chance. UPDATE: they just posted a really good video on their Facebook page, embedded below for your pleasure...and, mine :)

Lots of <3

P.S. I see you, St. Cloud. You stole so much from me and are hurting me, yet I stole nothing from you and do not hurt you on purpose. Please leave me alone.

wub wub wub

I can now say last year! Okay, so, last year I got to go see Skrillex twice and I can't explain in this post how amazing both shows were. More so the second show than the first. It completely blew me away. I got to see him in my home town and the second show in Lawrence, KS. The second show, in Lawrence, was in the beginning of November and I've really wanted to share the experience with you. Skrillex is a dubstep artist and has gained, assuming, the most popularity when it comes to the genre. It's a bit like techno but...not as boring? :) I'm not technically versed in the genre so I won't go on anymore. If you want to read more about it, go here.

The only way I can share is with the videos I recorded. I wasn't planning at all on recording a bunch but ended up wanting to record the entire show! I uploaded the videos immediately to YouTube and created a playlist of all of them in the order of the show. Below I've embedded the first video that started it off and here is the link for the entire playlist.

I hope you enjoy! It was a blast. I basically cried during the first half, I was so happy. If you're interested or if he ever comes close to your hometown, it's more than worth your time and money. He sells out fast though! Happy New Year!

<3