Nov 30, 2012

fill in the blank friday and eye candy

The other night, Wednesday, I took a quick trip in the evening to Lincoln to attend a hardcore show. The headlining band was actually supposed to be Suicide Silence but Mitch, the lead singer, recently passed away from crashing his bike into a light pole. *sigh* So, the line up went on to be The Matador, Narcotic Self, Memphis May Fire and ending with As I Lay Dying. It was an incredible show and I'm so glad I had the opportunity to go. I met up with a few old friends and even met some new friends near the end of the night. One of them being a completely tattooed covered boy who bought me a veggie falafel :) I am living the life. It is good.

I stuck around after the show in hopes to get a photo to remember the night. Memphis May Fire, the band I originally (along with Suicide Silence) was going to see was no where to be seen. Lame. Their set was one for wanting more. It was so cookie cutter and his screaming became bored. Especially after As I Lay Dying played...they wiped the floor with Mattie's skinny hipster jeans, Woody Allen black rimmed glasses and Toms. Gimme a break!

{ -- me with lead singer, Tim Lambesis, from As I Lay Dying -- }

1.  "The best way to spread Christmas cheer is..."   saying thanks. I know you're supposed to do that on Thanksgiving and I have expressed thanks but I think it needs to continue   .

2.  The holiday season is  okay. I enjoy it and I don't find it super stressful. I really just look forward to having days off work and relaxing    .

3.  When it comes to holiday decorating...     I don't do anything. Anytime I see cute decorations, I think about where else that money could go on more important things, like food for my dogs...or me   .

4. The thing I look forward to most about the holidays is   I mentioned this earlier but time off from work and relaxing. Not thinking about it. Work isn't that stressful but it's nice to get away  .

5. My favorite holiday tradition is  that we take ALL morning to open up presents. This year may be different tho as we're all under budgets. Times have gotten a bit harder. Will be more grateful for being around those who love me .

6. This year my Christmas plans include  going to my Grandma's house, like the family does every year. Small group of us. I plan to do a lot of reading and just laying around  .

7.  My favorite holiday food is  usually the turkey but for Thanksgiving my dad made an awesome dressing, I'm hoping he makes it again. I may just have to put in a request  .

Lots of <3

Nov 27, 2012

pick me up!

Alright, Monday...I mean, uhm, Tuesday, let's do this.

I had an awesomely long weekend because of the Holiday (1) and because I work at a stellar company, we had Friday after Thanksgiving off. I spent the end of the week with the family, which is sometimes a challenge but went smooth this year. Food was good and I got a lot of reading done (2).

I did get one workout in but, majority of the time I relaxed (3). It felt good to have a long time off from work and 'having' to do things. I'm naturally unmotivated and can be super lazy...but, it feels so good and I deserved it this weekend.

I did do something I'm not entirely proud of. I berated a "friend", contemplated my decisions I made by doing this and accepted what has happened and feel better about it (4). I hit a huge milestone with this. We'll just say, I feel so much better about myself knowing this person than I did before. I had said some hurtful things out of frustration and in-the-moment emotions but I don't regret it. It makes me super crazy when people just don't care about other people after they've done something that meant a lot to them. I know I would not have treated the situation the same way and would have been more accommodating than he and it's just unfortunate how his ego got so carried away — he didn't acknowledge or accept that he'd let someone down. He really didn't care. I digress on that matter. I can't say I didn't try tho.

I made badass southwest black bean soup (5) and I have so many leftovers. I'm eating it for dinner tonight and can't wait!

Lots of <3

Nov 19, 2012

monday pick me up

Mondays are hard, no doubt — but I also feel like it's another start. Another "go" at a new week. In a way, we get to start over everyday because what's happened the day before, we can't take back but since Mondays are...well, Mondays, this is the day I am choosing to deal with this challenge. Here, on Mondays, will be my attempt at finding things I'm grateful for that happened over the weekend. Here I go...

{ -- my little booger the day I took him home -- }

  1. Eddie went to the spa. He was a HOT mess! So, it's nice to have a cleaned up puppy to snuggle with. Also, today is his birthday. He's two!
  2. Friday night I went out with a couple girl friends to dinner and a movie. We saw the last Twilight installment :) It was so fun to see them and the horribly, terrific movie.
  3. Saturday was the last NE Husker home game (last one is the day after Thanksgiving, away) and I went with my dad, my grandma and a good friend. Was cold but fun. I love going to the games.
  4. Not having to work. It's been several years since I've held a job where I had to work the weekend. I'm very lucky to be in a full-time gig where I don't have to do weekend work anymore.
  5. Naps! After taking Eddie in for his spa appointment, I took a long nap and it felt great :)
Hope your Monday is going well and you have things to be grateful for!

Lots of <3

Nov 16, 2012

going cray

Texting is a dangerous game. A dirty game and I hate it! Everything can get so misunderstood and that's exactly what happened to me a week ago. I digress, I am moving forward. Some things just aren't in your control. I can't call because they won't answer to hear what I even have to say. So, I am now the crazy girl :)

I haven't done this in a while...and, I miss it. So, here goes "Fill in the Blank Friday"!

1.  My best quality is   recognizing my faults, admitting to being stupid, "crazy", etc. and continually working on myself   .

2.  One of my less flattering qualities is  I can get super down, depressed and angry very easily    .

3.  I'd rather be    in my PJs, on the couch, snuggling with my puppies watching a movie   .

4. Something I have been challenged with lately is   getting along with my sister  .

5. I am looking forward to  a short work week next with with Thanksgiving  .

6. A super random factoid about me is  I have to do things in twos. I do this with my CSS and in my car with my stereo. It has to be an even number  .

7.  I want to  be loved and be happy  .

Nothing is ever easy and we always tend to overcomplicate everything. Emotions get involved and we overreact. The good in all of that, is that time keeps moving and we move on. Only reflecting and learning from our experiences. Always a work in progress.

Lots of <3

Nov 2, 2012

my first time

Last week, I took an impromptu vacation to California, for the first time, to visit my new friend, Anthony. I was scared, nervous, excited and had no expectations. But, I figured, what is there to lose? And, what a story! I needed something to do!!! My parents, I could tell, were freaking but I needed someone to watch the puppies and transportation to and from the airport. They accepted, after the tickets were already not much choice. Ha!

I've never been to California and I didn't really expect to do a lot of touristy stuff. I really just wanted to get away from home, my normal life and to hang out with my friend. I was there for only 3 days and 3 nights. I stayed at his house with his two roommates and 2 pit bulls. Since the World Series was in town, we didn't do a lot of driving around or near San Francisco, he lives near Oakland, so we just bummed around. Which, I don't mind at all!

I hope to go back and visit again soon, but for now...I'll hold onto the memories :)

Hope to see you soon California :)

Lots of <3